He Is Hurt, Am I Hurt Too?

9:42 AM

Hello everyone! My current life has become hectic unexpectedly, which is why I just have the time to update my blog today. Well, last week, about 4th of November, I heard shocking news that my boyfriend had a accident when he’s riding his motorcycle on his way to his campus. I felt really really shocked, panic, sad, I felt really broke inside. Oh God I felt like something destroy my happy place into pieces. I was in a class when he got hit by a car. Then his mother told me that he gotta get a surgery right after I finished my second class. Without thinking about my absent or my assignment, I immediately went to RS Evasari after I finished my class. I went straight to AE (Accident and Emergency) Department, I walked to the room, and I found him. He broke his clavicle bone into 3 pieces. God, why this bad things happen to him. I knew he’s sad, afraid, angry…but why he still smiling like nothing happen, he's likes tell me that everything is gonna be okay. Right after I saw his eyes, I know he was faking it.

D-day after the surgery is done; I immediately go to the hospital to see his condition also taking care of him because his mother is in her duty and his father too. I trying to be happy, trying to always smile, trying to make him laugh, trying to make him comfortable, I try everything…but in my bottom of my heart, I feel broken inside.

I just cannot see my beloved person is hurt.

Day after tomorrow, in the early morning, I go to the hospital. Of course to see him. As usual I feed him, I help him to set a comfortable position if his right arm feels in pain, help him to walk to the bathroom, make him forget about his pain.

After he eats his lunch, he asks me to lying beside him. He trying to hug me but he cannot. So I’m just lying beside him in tears. I know I’m wrong. To show my sadness in front of him. But he wipes my tears and he says that he’s really okay. I’m not supposed to be worry about him.

Then in my really deep heart, I promise, I will be be perfect right arm for him, now, then, and forever.